Be thankful....it should be easy

Ok, so this is new.

I've never created a blog, I've never written down my thoughts for anyone but myself.  So here goes something new.

I don't know what I expect from this...just getting my thoughts down might be enough for me to quieten my mind and do something productive. 

Was life always this hard?

I have a pretty good life, I know I do but I cannot shake this feeling that I'm wasting it.  Whether it's due to laziness or indecision I cannot decide!

I've moved to a beautiful country, with a loving fiance, I am in good health and have several people who care for me... but why do I feel as though there's something missing?

It's the career thing - After several years working in an office environment, I decided to go to University and follow my passion...drama...I loved doing my degree - it was the hardest thing I have ever done but i knew I was working towards something worthwhile.  I felt like my life was moving in the right direction.  Now, a year later, I'm struggling to figure out what job to do (I'm temping....in offices - the type of job I was trying to avoid) and don't even know how to start doing something I love.  I don't even know what job I want, there's the real problem.  Plus, we can't afford to live on one salary, so I'm thinking I should get another office job, save some money and then start on a career that I love.  All the while I feel like i'm missing something, like I should be doing more.

Selfish self pity

I don't deserve to pity myself, there are people in this world who struggle to survive.  I know I should be grateful for everything I have.  I think this week I need to reflect on the positives....I will find my path, it just may take a little time.  I have time, I have support, I have everything I need.

Maybe there's something in this blogging malarky....